Hone Grown

I was worrying recently about spreading myself too thin, and worse, squashed out in the wrong direction. Surely a worry many creative people have?

The bills need paying and now I am in the working sector I have to maintain it. Mostly, I like it! The freedom is a bonus. Yet aspects of it can drag me down. It's the obvious stuff. The endless scratching for a few pounds. The constant dilemma of working at something tedious, weighed against creative projects that set you on fire, that contribute nothing financially.

Outside of a little non-creative work, at the moment it's like this. I've honed projects down. The spoken word set Pains and Pleasure can roll along, hopefully snowballing once I start. This will give me new practice with an audience and leads naturally into the development of the one-woman play. People are coming my way and links are being made, making me know in my guts this is the right way forward. Fancy Nancy is still with several agents and I do hope they all ask for the whole manuscript. Soon, please. Now I have almost, almost, almost (say it!) completed the final redraft. She must be born, this is her year!

There is the business venture, details of which will appear in public soon. It's exciting and I'm skinning that down to its essentials too. Watch this space.

Focus and growth is everything to me right now.

Oh, a pleasant, dynamic, witty chap to go out with would be a bonus. But let me dream of that in another blog posting.

My website, my frustration, the London snow

There's a lot going on and some of it I can't write about in detail as it's too private.

But I must say this. Why is it that as we fight to remove barriers, to circumvent challenges and obstacles we did not create, there are officials and organisations and agencies, who undermine us in these efforts? Don't they see what they are doing?

So we become conflicted. We spend so much time, effort and energy (to quote a friend) on petty fights and bureaucracy that we run out of steam on what we should be doing. Living fully would be a start.

Is that so much to ask?

Anyhow, my website: www.pennypepper.co.uk

It is a fine slinky thing, made by a very talented friend. Do have a look and contact me - in fact this blog links straight in.

I should write about London and the snow. It's almost gone. It was pretty for 10 minutes, making us innocent and clean, then an annoying as we could not move or go where we are so used to going.

I am wary there will be more. I never relish my daily freedom so much as when it's taken away from me.